i play lot's of video games (pretty much a basement dweller) i like most kinds of music, but i especially like electronic music and metal (yes, it is possible to like both). i play mostly team fortress 2 (ask me about my clan. we are always open to new members). other than that i play usually valve games and such on steam. i got a PS3 recently, so i am also playing some platform and/or adventure games (since my bias toward PC shooters have made me basically abandon my 360, i have decided not to get any FPS for a console ever again). i also have an unhealthy addiction to webcomics, which i shall list under "books". my avatar is phineas, also a character from CTV (charby the vampirate)he's uh... doing his thing there, he's a bit of a weirdo and a sneak...
...i'll find a new avatar eventually




my personality:
my personality, I.E. how i act and think, is very influenced by my mood. and my mood is directly influenced by music( which is why i am so fond of it). my mood also changes by the time of day. in the mornings i'm irritable and intimidating. during the majority of the day i am thoughtful, energetic and playful. during the night when i am more tired i become reflective and a little amorous. i enjoy simple things in life. like spinning my house phone on it's back( the center of gravity is directly under the circular arrow-key-menu-d-pad-center like button, so it's pretty interesting to watch). i also don't easily get tired of things a like, which is why i have a certain fondness for what most would call "annoying music". as such, i myself am a little annoying in person, but i have been trying really hard to stop that. i am also a sneak in training. i have a bit of a habit of stealing things from people around me and putting them somewhere else( or at least i try to). i am also very philosophical, and if i'm not actually doing anything there's a good chance i'm thinking about perspective and opinion and other such things( my favorite quote is 'there is nothing in life but atoms and space; everything else is just opinion' from Democritus). i am horrible at creating, but i am very good at elaborating, which sort of explains why i enjoy complex metaphors.
... that's all i can think for now. i'm sure if you get to know me you'll figure me out eventually ^___^




crap about me you never wanted to know:
i like to say that my mind is lake glass being shattered in slow motion. i sometimes find myself creating characters in my mind and having them talk to each other (like mental sock puppets) sometimes though, i will create this characters to represent different parts of my personality, and then argue with them. recently i have been arguing with my "social shield", an entity that represents how i act around other people. whatever i try to say, it goes through my "social shield" and then made less douchey, edgy, jackassy, or whatever. however, although having this entity is very useful sometimes, it completely changes what i am trying to say, so i sorta get the impression that the people i talk to don't actually know me. in retrospect, whatever i type in fact does not go through this entity, so my personality when i type is very different than when i talk. i have many theories regarding this entity, but they are complicated and sort of don't make sense, so i will spare you a boring lecture (although you are free to ask me about this entity). i have many other theories that aren't related to this entity too (and once again, feel free to ask me about them).


my deviant art page
i don't want to just repost the stuff i've already posted, plus the stuff i have is hardly very furry, so imma just give you guys a link to my deviant art page:
http://just-us-pickles.deviantart.com/


my path to furrydom
i realize that i was doomed to be a furry from the start. the only stories i liked to read were ones that depicted animals doing stuff. i especially liked ones where the animals still lived in our world, and the author gave them their own little society and structure the humans never saw. when i first heard about furries, it was from newgrounds. there was this spoof of tankmen that was just ridiculous for many reason. it was a furry joke, and of course from that experience i believed that furries were just gay perverts like it depicted. i'm not sure what made me take a second or even third look at furrydom, but i did. i only declared myself a furry when i looked up furry on wikipedia. i was actually shocked to find out the true meaning of furrydom. i learned of the prejudice, the struggle, and the drive of the furry people.and maybe i didn't do so right away, but eventually declared myself a furry. i never told any of my friends at first, and i still feel awkward whenever my furry-ness comes up. at first i was very cautious. i had learned of the hate some people had for furries, and th group of friends i was hanging out with at that time seemed to me like those kinds of people. i became more and more comfortable with my fandom, and even began drawing furries( much of which i quickly erased, scared and at least partially ashamed of them). one day one of my "friends" ( some asshole newfag guy that thinks he is god) saw me drawing an awesome cat dude. he was all like " are you drawing a furry?" in a very pretentious and douchbaggy- monotonous voice. and i, attempting to both defend furries and maybe somehow not come off as a furry myself (which i failed miserably at) said "what's wrong with furries". my "friend replied, and i swear to god he said something at least like this if not word for word, "are you kidding me? furries are the reason for all the bestiality in the world".that of course pissed me off, but i just sort of let it go. i was still kinda recovering from the crazy temper i had form the day i was born all the way up to the end of eighth grade, so maybe that was why i didn't freak out. i'm not even sure what i did, as that was freshman year in highschool. ( this "paragraph" is too long, so imma just end it right now)

OH HEY A LITTLE UPDATE-
just a bunch of random crap i have found out about myself since the last time i updated

1. i now worship chaos. not lord chaos, he is a dick. just general chaos. it's become a bit of an obsession of mine recently

2. my mind, my personality, my sexuality, and everything in my head can pretty much be summed up with the word "ambiguous"

3. if i had to choose a specific fursona, it would be 1/2 fox, 1/4 cat and 1/4 troll.

4. i may or may not be bi-polar. i honestly have no idea, but i appear to show one or two of the symptoms (and this i mean i appear to have similarities with characters who are in fact bi-polar)

5. i am no longer addicted to webcomics (at least, not as much as i used to be)

that's it for now