01/25/2010 07:41:35

I had experience death doorstep many times.  The earliest when I tried to suicide at the age of fifteen.  I had the knife pressed against my wrist counting the seconds down.  I only made it to two before I split.  An older version of myself stared me down and simply said "If you do this now, you will never know what's waiting for you".  I came to, still kneeling on the floor with the knife pressed up against me.  The next one was through a dream, it was night and pillars of purple light where scattered throughout the town.  I say an older lady laughing and dancing in one of the pillars floating up.  I went near one and felt safe and warm so I walked in and floated up.  Several feet up, a huge surge of energy pushed down at me with such force that it forced me awake with my body in pin needles and with a voice in my head "No!".  In the morning, looking for my shoes, i noticed that my bed had bent inward.  I have no doubt of the existence of another being beyond our perception.  Thus, begin my fear of death.  After nearly ten years, I finally came to terms.  Sorry for the long comment.

01/18/2010 22:35:17

gosh, Riso... been a while, eh?

lol so was goin on?

12/24/2009 13:52:18

hey Riso hunny whats wrong? -hugs you tightly- I am sorry if i aint a good girlfriend if thats what's wrong....ill be better just tell me what to do please

12/24/2009 12:29:33

:D hiyo!! thanks for the new friend ^_^  *hugs*
Hows life? Whats new?

12/24/2009 01:09:44

lov u hun saw ur status.. :(  plz dont i dont wana lose a good friend as u r. im here for u if u wana tlk *hugs u tight and kiss ur chin*

11/12/2009 02:29:23

Happy Belated Birthday!

11/10/2009 05:15:36

Happy birthday.

10/31/2009 23:47:59

whats up eh?

10/31/2009 19:53:58

Helloooo my wolf lover ^_^!!!!

10/24/2009 13:46:33

well that's good i'm doing the same